By the rainy beach

Watching the salty waves

Crash against the golden beach

As lightning lit up the sky

And droplets splash in the breeze

Sitting hand in hand with my man

I hum old forgotten lyrics

The world might deem it bizarre

But I call this bliss.

Fleeting fancies

I hear you are getting married

I don't know what emotions it yield

I am numb when I think of you

Or is it sadness that I feel?

I'm reminded of the times together

Whether good or bad, I can't gather

I remember I was told that we had no future

But why exactly, I yet do not know...

Your sister compared me to a slut

With whom no man could have a future

For what erroneous sin of mine,

That mystery, I am yet to unveil!

To your family - we were not compatible

Or was it more to do with the dowry and sorts?

Compatible indeed, in monetary terms perhaps?

But did you not fall for me, to pursue more than worldly dreams?

Your reasons too, were beyond my reasoning

And your tears at times seemed forced to me

You said I was a fairy, placed high on a pedestal

Who could be worshiped but to the world could not be revealed.

You soon let go, marking the end of 'we'

A year gently passed and it was an ordeal

Yet I thought when I move out, you would feel

That we were the best, that was and could ever be!

And that with time life would bring you back to me

I wonder why I had cringed at being set free

Longing to be with someone, who'd never stand up for me.

And a year was gone before your call woke me from my dream

You said you had missed hearing my sweet, lovely voice -

And remembered clearly that I had a sexy toned body

Gently reminding me that our love was dead and gone -

You told you did think of me, though you were over me long ago!

Numbed by tears, I heard you ask me to fall in love again

And claimed that my man would be the luckiest of them all

And assured he would be dead, if a tear to my eyes he brought -

For as a 'friend' you would guard me against all odd!

Convincing that you too longed to see me again

Promising me to meet up the next time you'd come

Leaving me, like the previous year, completely shunned

You hung up, leaving no more strength in me to summon!

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Now, I'm frankly done

I have cried enough without cursing you

Lied to myself, trying to cheer all

And held myself steady, in spite of all that dreary!

And one day you walk into my house

With my man, as an uninvited guest

With caution I welcome, trying to be courteous

For I know your ways, your ease at getting flirtatious.

You claim you are visiting, you have come for a wedding

I wonder why after years, you do not choose to go home

To your ailing father, nor to your aging mom

Nor to console a sister, over whom you had cried tonnes!

Or to your beloved fiancee - who was yours

Even when you'd called to tell me I was hot!

To that pretty face which had been waiting for your arrival

And will be betrothed to you, within a month!

Your ways have always left me awestruck

And yet I have tried to treat you with respect

But now, you have left in me no more emotions -

Than to despise a name that was stuck to me by birth!

Monday Mourning

I have had nightmares,

I have had falls,

But waking up to a Monday -

Is the worst of 'em all!!!

A Thankyou Note

For answering my call, despite not being free

For staying up late, giving up on your sleep,

For listening to my stories, not batting an eyelid

For singing to me, as I'd welcome my dreams!

For how you'd hold me close amidst friends, and beam

For how you've thanked every waiter who has served us a meal

For that first kiss you planted on my forehead in glee

For wiping my tear which trickled down, after some movie!

For noticing the pimple that caused a blemish on my cheeks -

And yet making me believe that I was still queen!

For how when you hug me and make me daydream

For how your eyes still look at me and brightly gleam!

For the silly misunderstandings on that Valentine's eve,

For the times you forgave and the mistakes you let be -

For respecting my choices and being with me

For the happiness you brought in, as agonies were forced to leave!

For thinking beyond the barriers of caste and creed -

For the patience shown as I kept testing if you would ever flee,

For bringing back faith and offering a love - in which I could believe

For teaching me that as we give back, more in abundance we receive!