Fleeting fancies

I hear you are getting married

I don't know what emotions it yield

I am numb when I think of you

Or is it sadness that I feel?

I'm reminded of the times together

Whether good or bad, I can't gather

I remember I was told that we had no future

But why exactly, I yet do not know...

Your sister compared me to a slut

With whom no man could have a future

For what erroneous sin of mine,

That mystery, I am yet to unveil!

To your family - we were not compatible

Or was it more to do with the dowry and sorts?

Compatible indeed, in monetary terms perhaps?

But did you not fall for me, to pursue more than worldly dreams?

Your reasons too, were beyond my reasoning

And your tears at times seemed forced to me

You said I was a fairy, placed high on a pedestal

Who could be worshiped but to the world could not be revealed.

You soon let go, marking the end of 'we'

A year gently passed and it was an ordeal

Yet I thought when I move out, you would feel

That we were the best, that was and could ever be!

And that with time life would bring you back to me

I wonder why I had cringed at being set free

Longing to be with someone, who'd never stand up for me.

And a year was gone before your call woke me from my dream

You said you had missed hearing my sweet, lovely voice -

And remembered clearly that I had a sexy toned body

Gently reminding me that our love was dead and gone -

You told you did think of me, though you were over me long ago!

Numbed by tears, I heard you ask me to fall in love again

And claimed that my man would be the luckiest of them all

And assured he would be dead, if a tear to my eyes he brought -

For as a 'friend' you would guard me against all odd!

Convincing that you too longed to see me again

Promising me to meet up the next time you'd come

Leaving me, like the previous year, completely shunned

You hung up, leaving no more strength in me to summon!

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Now, I'm frankly done

I have cried enough without cursing you

Lied to myself, trying to cheer all

And held myself steady, in spite of all that dreary!

And one day you walk into my house

With my man, as an uninvited guest

With caution I welcome, trying to be courteous

For I know your ways, your ease at getting flirtatious.

You claim you are visiting, you have come for a wedding

I wonder why after years, you do not choose to go home

To your ailing father, nor to your aging mom

Nor to console a sister, over whom you had cried tonnes!

Or to your beloved fiancee - who was yours

Even when you'd called to tell me I was hot!

To that pretty face which had been waiting for your arrival

And will be betrothed to you, within a month!

Your ways have always left me awestruck

And yet I have tried to treat you with respect

But now, you have left in me no more emotions -

Than to despise a name that was stuck to me by birth!