Worth-the-while

Jostled, I rub 

My half-awoken eyes

My voice has failed me

Yet I let out a cry.

I halt. I listen. 

I squint. Then pry –

The day’s just begun – 

Lot’s to be done, when there’s light.

To many it’s another day, 

That’ll just pass by.

To me, it’s a lifetime – 

To be lived in black & white.

Like ship-men who've embarked

To rummage in the dark

I switch on his PC

And it slowly comes to life.

Its white screen blinks at me – 

Awake, and bright

Now, that voice too has left me

Let’s give words a try.

Search terms also fail me 

For a ‘search’ now dropped

Among this war & cry, 

My loved one, I've lost.

He smiles at me from a distance,

It’s a snap clicked some time back.

I notice, his smile is hazy

And a tear, those dark eyes wear.

When you stop looking,

There’s so much you’d see.

And when you stop seeing

There’s a lot left to perceive.

The TV screams out updates –

It’s absconding, broke, or found?

I see him smile at me, 

From deep underneath, 

His black eyes glistening

From the salty seas.

Maybe my long wait, 

Is not worth-the-while.

With him gone

I’ve been left to scrounge.

With all might I push 

My wheel-chair around

(Didn't I tell my limbs failed me

the day he was born?)