New Year Wish

I wish -
I started early,
wearing lipsticks deep red.

I wish
growing up,
more sleeveless dresses I wore. 

I wish
more often I used
dirty cuss words too! 

I wish
I had decked up 
a bit more frequently. 

I wish I felt
more sure about
my little self.

And knew I was pretty, 
with brown eyes 
and a dimpled smile. 

I wish my first kiss
was not
so delayed.

I wish
I made love,
as a young maid. 

I wish on myself,
money,
I had spent!

I wish 
I didn't long
for validation from them.

I wish...
Oh, I wish
if I weren't so late! 

And wish
I didn't have
so much regrets, off-late! 

I wish
I'd live my life better
in the coming decade!